I feel like my body has played a cruel cosmic trick on me.
I started spotting (bleeding a little) this morning so I called my Dr. He took a look, and sounded optimistic. My uterus is just the right size for a 10 week pregnant person. My hormone levels are just where they should be, etc. But he sent me to have a sonogram just to be sure. During the sonogram, I saw the little sack where my baby should be. It is a black void. Nothing is in it. No baby ever actually grew. My body thinks there's a baby in there, so it's doing all the normal things, but there's no baby. Never was. No "blueberry".
I feel jipped. Tricked. Betrayed.
We're hoping that my body will take care of this itself in the next few days/week. If it doesn't I may need a D&C. But I am carrying on with my trip to Utah. A restful, fun couple of days seems like just the right thing right now.